Little Lulu
You are very active and weigh a whopping 1.9kg at 31 weeks. The average is 1.4-1.6kg. No wonder my pelvic muscles and soles of feet hurt.
My legs have changed to accomodate this new weight gain and pressure. I’m glad I wear long pants cos there are red stretch marks and veins at the back of my legs. These are caused by the increase in blood volume in my body but the flow coming back up to my heart is very slow due to gravity and the loosening of the blood valves. Thus, the reddish bumpy veins.
I waddle even more than I already have. It hurts to walk. Every step, my soles scream in pain, as though I’m going through stones’ reflexology.
You are so heavy, my dear.
Today, you didn’t nudge me awake like you usually do about 5-6am. I thought you must be sleeping. I took a shower, drank 3 cups of cold water to wake you but you remained in deep slumber.
I didn’t like it one bit.
I know your pattern and you would have been nudging and up and about. I waited for the cold water to kick in. Still nothing.
I called the labour ward and since it’s been an hour that I’ve not felt you move, I had to go in and get checked.
Lucky Daddy was at home and wasn’t working. Can you imagine how worried we were? I didn’t dare to think anything bad lest my worry and stress chemicals get to you. Yet I was concerned.
Do you know how difficult it was to worry and not worry?
You remained quiet even after I moved you around and poked you. I was put on observation for an hour plus. We heard your rapid heartbeat and you pushed away the CTG disk attached to my tummy. Other than that, you were still.
I’ve been put on MC this week and will see doctor tomorrow. From the time I left hospital till 5pm, we were anxiously doing the kick count. You reached 10 kicks only at 7pm. Normally, after eating, a cold drink or when you are restless, the nudges come fast and furious.
It is very hard not to worry and worry at the same time. I tried to do work and chores and play games. Anything to relax. I pray and I play with the cats. The braxton hicks are getting more frequent. It makes me break out in cold sweat and causes me much discomfort. Doctor says it’s early for you to come out and you have showed no signs of such… like water bag burst or contractions with backache.
Do you know Coco cat and Petal girl came to sayang my tummy? In the morning, Petal (who doesn’t come to rub you at all.) came to my tummy as I’m sitting and rub her head on it. When I came back, Coco jumped towards me and kissed/sniffed my face.
These cats know Mommy’s worried. I’ll share with you more stories about them and how they’ve comforted (or annoyed) me during my loss and when I’m carrying you. I hope you get along with them. They have provided me with much-needed comfort and company.
Lulu, I know it’s getting cramped in my womb now at 32 weeks. You are in engaged position and might not move around too much. But you need to let me know you are alright. Not stay still for 12 hours. Even an hour is too much.
I wish I have the teletubbies TV in my tummy to see you.
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Little one, this is for you. 